a letter from a missing soldier

19.09.2010

there is love in my heart

there is peace and joy

how can I leave that behind and join the world?

But how can I lock myself in myself and leave the world behind

And reality with it?

Is there love in that?

I cannot.

I need to keep the seeds in my heart alive

I need to keep it open so that the sun’s light can shine on them

And the summer rain relieve the soil.

And I must walk through this world and keep looking

Until I find a place

Until I reach a place

When the joy and the peace in my heart will be like unto the life, and the joy and the peace that sings outside, all around me

Until my soul finds its home

And my heart finds her brother and lover

And my mind finds friends

In that land that I don’t know how to find

Brothers, are you looking for me as I am looking for you?

I am here. I am still alive. Look for me. Don’t forget me.