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(or, the lukewarm)

If you cannot do it with love you cannot do it at all.

If you cannot do it with your heart, then you cannot do it.

Because it is a motion of love, a movement of the heart. That is all it is.

That is all that anything and everything significant is.

A movement of the heart; an act of love.

If you cannot do it so, you cannot do it.

(Some necessary things are written into our bodies and we cannot avoid doing them, even if we do them begrudgingly.)

(only the very basic things. God wrote them so, because otherwise we would self-eliminate and cease to exist.)

But otherwise you must approach life with your heart,

And it won’t happen to you.

Don’t think you are getting anything done on the side,

if you are not involved with your heart,

you are not getting anything done.

I thought that.

What I thought was wrong.

Life is high-maintenance.

It is demanding.

It wants you whole.

Otherwise it spits you out of her mouth: because you are neither cold nor warm.

Life is a heavy box, and you need all of your strength to lift it.

If you think you can do it without the strength of love,

You are wrong.

You will drop it.

I drop things.

I drop so many things that I am surrounded by shattered stuff, by broken things.

They are spread about like heaps all around me.

It is time to clean up.

The good news is you can clean up.

It is time to toughen up.

The good news is you will always have the strength of love when you want it.

It is there if you want it.